Hi, I'm astudent from india currently attending graduate school in America and ever since I came here, I've become a mental wreck. I have become too violent, depressed, confused, lonely etc and I can't focus on my studies. Topped the class during first term of the semester, but failed miserably in the second in almost every subject. The Indian students in the University hate me the most because I'm from a different ethnic background (in India) whereas they are all of the same background. I live with my sister and she even physically abuses me. I find it strange because I'm an adult and yet she hits me in the most vicious manner you can imagine. She threatens me to leave her house all the time. How can one focus on studies when you are being threatened or abused all the time ? Don't know where i will go because renting a studio here is no joke (1 $ = 50 INR). I lost 20 pounds within 2 months of my arrival. I'm not trying to offend Americans out there but there are any international students out there, they will understand. I have a 5 year visa and after 2 years in grad school, I need to get an intern somewhere for next 3 years to pay off the overwhelming debt. I think I'm inching closer to committing suicide. On two occasions, I tied the noose but got scared thinking what American authorities would do (if i survived) to me and its impact on my parents.