since last September, my life has been falling apart. Everyone close to me has been neglecting me and eventually just stopped talking to me, I lost my best friend and girlfriend at the time just liek that the very same day. Now I am hearing my current friends are going and doing things behind my back, then gloating about it to my face like my feelings do not matter. And because of this I am alone again for the first time since 1992, and i hate it, after I had so many friends, being alone hurts more then anything. And I just have to think what in the world have I done that everyone I know so much takes me for granted, I mean even at the time I saw my last GF, they knew I was hurting, but no one even cared to even check on me, and trust me that would of helped me a lot. I am so sick and tired of being used. Its like I have this sign on my fore head "easy to take advantage of." After this I don't know if I will trust anyone to be close to me ever again, but I don't want it to come to that. Right now all I can think of is getting away from this place and making a new start somewhere else. Something I have been wanting for a very long time. But you know, there's that green stuff I can never get enough of.:dry: But I am working on that....It just going to require waiting on paper work. But til then here i have been every night on this comp, trying to forget everythign thats happened to me, and its not been working so well. I just feel so infuriated that I am so taken for granted. It feels liek I have absolutely noone but myself, and thats not enough for me, I am just hoping that changes when I leave this place.