To be able to annoy/anger/irritate everyone by just being who you are. Even when you are trying really REALLY hard NOT to be annoying/anger inducing/irritating. To be able to drive everyone away - without even trying - without even knowing how you're doing it. To be able to make people feel bad without intending to - definitely without wanting to - and having no way to fix it once you've done it. To be able to be the person that eventually everyone least wants to talk to. The bottom of the barrel. The last resort. The "oh my god not her" person.