This is not about my addiction, or negative view of drugs; this is, in fact, a case of something that helped me. I'm not sure if I should post in here, but hell, since is has to do with drugs, I'll go for it. I'm 17. In my life I've been drunk, I've smoked weed, I've snorted painkillers, I've done cocaine, and I've done ecstasy. X, in fact, I tried for the first time Saturday night. I've been struggling with depression for about eight to ten months, ending up in the hospital on suicide watch once. I've been told that x wasn't a good idea because of the after effects. Regardless, I was in a good mood and wanted to try it. I don't really know why I wanted to, I just did. Obviously, while I was rollin, I felt feelings I hadn't felt in months: peace, overwhelming love, forgiveness, empathy, etc. Everything that, basically, you find in God Himself (so I believe). Depression didn't exist. Now the odd thing is, I braced myself for the worst. But when I came down I felt kinda bad physically (though not as bad as I thought I would - I ended up taking three pills my first time) but yet the residue of all the peace and love and everything stuck with me. Now, I'm completely down, yet I don't feel depressed. The reason is because this stuff shifted my view on life. It made me realize that deep inside my mind, a real human side still existed. If we are made in the image of God, I now think that nothing gets us closer to what we were supposed to be in the first place besides that. I now find myself caring where I didn't care, I find bitterness and anger fading. It also made me realize how stupid most other drugs were; alcohol and pot just made me feel good. Coke got me a little deep, but not near as much as ecstasy, and people can get way too addicted to that and it's far too expensive so I won't do it again. What do all of you have to say about this?