i started on this site last weekend and have really reaped the benefits. i am 36 years old and have had a rocky life of sorts. i was a latchkey child at age five and have been abused since age five. i married an abuser and continued on the cycle preset for me by others. i am now remarried to a wonderful husband who has no idea how to help me. he knows i am depressed. he knows that i often contemplate suicide, however he has no idea how to help me. when i was at a low in my life, i found this website. i needed it so bad. i see so many on this site who are like me who struggle with day to day living. i look forward to coming to this site because it helps me know i am not alone.