Greetings. Rarely do I see a case similar to mine. I recently visited your website and other sites concerning Suicide Awareness and Prevention.I noticed there seems to be more attention on Teenagers and on the Elderly. Unfortunately, I fall in between. After reading this you may agree with me that i should kill myself. I am a male approaching forty five years old currently under treatment for Depression at a local clinic. My wife died suddenly in 1993 of a heart condition(Severity was concealed from me by herself & family). Our marriage lasted approx six weeks (no kids). Since then I feel myself eroding from the inside out. The articles published state that Men complete Suicide more than Women. Especially unmarried men with no kids. They may state some of the reasons, but no solutions. Could it be that this society poses undue pressures that some people cannot overcome? For instance: As an individual, nothing is guaranteed. However, you, as an individual are required to guarantee results to your Employer, guarantee payments to the bank for your car loan, guarantee payments to the bank for your mortgage and pay taxes. If you default, damage to your credit and reputation will occur. Can you do the same to your boss when they lay you off ? No. My Psychiatrist agrees with me on this, and says as unfair as it is, I need to work within this system somehow. But suppose I'm no longer able to ? What alternatives do I have ? Where can I go ? Despite what you hear, there is very little help available. Only medication and talk therapy. It does not help. My inner resources have been slowly eroding. Like a rock under constant running water. I try to meet women, but most of them give me dirty looks and if i manage to go on a date, they bum a free dinner and say they don't want to see me again. They say Suicide is wrong and unnecessary. But is it ? It is more than just staying alive. You have to stay alive and PRODUCE despite personal hardships. Is it political ? Maybe it is, because you pay taxes regardless whether you like your job or not, miserable or not. A hospital may be able to keep you alive, but unless you earn your own money, you end up a burden to someone else. I, for one do not want to be a burden. I don't think an agency or person wants it either. But if Suicide is wrong, I may not have a choice. In this country men in their thirties and forties are expected to help themselves. To be providers, to have solid careers, and to have answers. If one is unable to do this, he is tossed aside and forgotten. They say no one owes you a living. Why then do I owe money to live? Thank you for your Help.