So, I've just got back from the hospital. It wasn't a suicide attempt but I have yet again cut requiring stitches. It's getting stupid now. I don't know what I can do. The thoughts of killing myself have come back but nothing set in stone. No plans have been made. It worries me as I may end up taking a massive od on the spare of the moment. At the moment I do want to live. I don't want to end up how I was 2 years ago and at the moment I feel as though I am slipping back that way. I have to wait until the end of November for the Psychiatrist appointment and don't know what is happening with the place the nurse man refered me to. I am going to try calling him as has got to the stage where I don't know what I am doing anymore. At the hospital I was supposed to wait to be seen by crisis team and couldn't see the point. I managed to talk my way out of it. Basically just said that nothing will happen tonight and it wont. I have got it out my system for a few more days. And they let me go. I am going to call my nurse guy tomorrow and see if I can go in and see him Monday afternoon after uni, or at least have a chat with him on the phone. He is quite useful. But for now, I don't know what to do\!