I want to be alone! Im happy in my self-distructive lonliness! I thought being all alone made me miserable but it didn't. I went out there and found a guy who apparently likes me, and I have been on 3 dates with him now, well I say dates actually It was 3 situations involving alcahol! And Now he is texting me every day and constantly asking me when can I see him again and I just want to scream I dont want to see you again! Because without alcahol I find you boring, you are not my type and the fact you are a stupid kid with no money annoys me! Rant rant rant! I want to say all this to him as now he is constantly interupting me being alone! I need to tell him but I have no idea how. After new years eve he saw a little bit of the real me and started shouting and telling me I need help! I dont want or need help i do however need him to go away!