Really.. really.. upset. Just had a shitty meeting with new psychiatrist, and they've basically just labelled me a fucking alcoholic. On top of that, they refuse to work with me until I sign up to the local drug/alcohol team. Fuck sake! I am NOT an alcoholic. I don't NEED alcohol. I'm not my mum, nor my dad.. I've lived with alcoholics, and holy shit.. I am not like them! I don't depend on alcohol, I dont need it, I just want it because it helps dim things. I use it because I can't deal with being inside my head while sober. So what if my liver and kidneys are damaged.. that's supposed to make me wanna stop? I'm actively suicidal.. I clearly don't give a flying shit about my wellbeing. Fucking hell. This is all just bullshit. They didn't like me the moment I walked in. Just trying to pluck reasons out of thin air to refuse me help. Pathetic little dicks.