I have come to realize, I am a drug addict. When I was an adolescent, I was drinking too much. When I was in high school, I would smoke reef all day when i wasn't at school (in front of/with parents). ive done dxm, salvia, H, poppers (nitrite) and pillz of all sorts. I started coc at 15 and got addicted at 17. it was crak at 19 and i was at my worst. after 3 months i went back to coc, but more than ever. all day, every day. money came from an outside source (parents) and was not too much of an issue. now, i have to grow up cause i'm about to go to medskool (i planned to be one for all the wrong reasons) and i'm worried about the legal aspects, so i quit everything illegal. i'm smoking k2 every night and it messes with my mind. i'm sucking whippets and i'm worried about my brain. im also a bulimic. i was using adhd pills in high school to be thin, followed by coc. but when the uppers were gone, i couldnt stay thin. so i bp, and now i bp all the time. i always have to be on something, doing something that gives me a high. why cant i be drug free for real. why do people always ask, "what happened to you as a child?" I dont have any memory of any (physical) abuse, but I am an effing drug addict. i want to stop being a drug addict.