And the walls came tumbling down

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by She had wings, Oct 19, 2006.

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  1. She had wings

    She had wings Member

    I feel bad
    And sometimes people notice, which I am so greatful for.
    And they say, "Are you okay?"
    And I say
    "Yeah, I'm just really tired"
    And they smile and leave me alone.
    I don't know how to tell them when I'm not okay... I don't know how not to lie.
    I've lied so much.
    I don't recognize the truth anymore.

    I know I'll be okay, but there are moments, or days, or weeks, or months, when I'm almost all the way at the bottom. Even in those times, I must subconsciously know I'll eventually float back up again, otherwise I'd be dead. But those are the times when I'm really not okay, and I'm really not just tired, and I really need something. But I don't know what yet.
    And I think maybe I could figure out what I need if I get to know myself a little better.

    Excuse the rambling, I just needed to get it out. Thanks.
     
  2. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    Are you okay hun?? I hope ya feel better, you have to vent sooner or later....and that was a healthy way of doing it....keep it up!




    Take care, and you can always PM me if you ever need to talk. :hug:



    Take Care hun! :hug:



    :hug:




    ~Carolyn
     
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