I realized last night while in chat after someone in there told me that I was angry that something is truly wrong.. I have been angry for 8 plus years. I have had everything from relatives I don't even know causing problems to nearly being killed by a stupid bitch to being harassed on buses and in college. I have no idea on how to get rid of all the anger, rage, and resentment towards people who have done me wrong. The last therapist I went to, I stopped seeing because one of the nurses had been listening to the wall of my therapists office. I refuse to see another therapist because of that person's actions. I have built homicidal thoughts toward her. And no, when I turned her in they did nothing about it. Just like this past semester. Just like the pieces of shit across the street who yell at me all the time. I can care less if any of you believe me. I am sick and tired of being told that things that take place and things that can be observed over a 3-4 months period is my IMAGINATION and me being PARANOID. Its an excuse to blow it off because no one wants to hear the truth that harassment and stupidity does happen in this world. This is why everything is going down the drain because people choose to not care anymore and so people get away with harming others. My mom actually said that I needed Valium at one point. I get so close to snapping. I feel sorry for the person who is going to set me off one day. They are going to be in a world of pain. I am not going to put up with this shit no more. And its not a threat, it is a promise.