My anger is rising or is it I can't rationalize it away. Most likely that latter. I am so very angry. I use to be able to do normal things. Like keep things clean, have solutions for tasks needed doing. I am becoming dependent on those who have depended on me. We have useless stuff everywhere. My husband is always bringing stuff home. It's been a long hard road of getting him to get it out of here. His thinking is different than mine. This morning I couldn't find something and he's not here. That is the trigger that set me off. I'm not going to move boxes around to find one simple item. Even if I absolutely have to, that kind of moving around aggravates my knee pain. When I took my meds this morning, I realized I'm feeling suicidal because upon seeing the meds that feeling pulled on me. That's my clue to root out the anger. So here goes, I'm so fucking pissed off!