Why im relapsing. Its because noone truly cares about everyone else, you get raised to believe in karma, tell the truth, dont steal but once you hit 18 / become a adult it all goes to hell.. Hell starts in school but nothing is done about bullies/slander/school image then college is big on stereotypes men need 6 packs, money, like sports in order to get a hot chick, women need to be hot, skinny, wear makeup to be "attractive" and this is how we are raised? seriously... then in the adult world, everyone just takes advantage of everybody else and there is no denying it some people feel guilty and try to "pay it back/forward" then you have the majority who think its always about them and only them You have people telling you to "smarten up, grow a pair" cause your in a hard time BECAUSE of other people treating you like dog shit I quite frankly dont see the point in continuing in life, yea you might says its selfish, but honestly i dont care anymore...i need to focus on myself and its damm near impossible when you ask for help and people lie, steal, take advantage...they just dont care.. you might say its cause of MY choices/actions brought this upon myself, well think harder.... is it really with todays society that dont care and take advantage of you? Bullies, Liars, Theifs, Cheaters...just some examples, and you think i made the choices to find these people? no, you argue that i LET them, well there is always someone better than you and when you have felt low all your life, you feel low so everyone else feels better and they feed off it, its not easy to stop them feeding off it when you ASK for help but you use up your resources Im sorry for those who read this, Im just very angry with myself and had to vent.