I'm not quite sure why I am writing this, I don't feel anyone can be of any help to me, I just felt like I have to write. I'm young male, no education, no job.. I got into an arts academy, but quit after 6 months. I got a job too, quit after 1 year. Due to the welfare system I can just smooch off the society and continue to life a healthy life. I'm grateful for that and I'm glad I was born in this country. I'm not even suicidal, not anymore. I'm mostly indifferent. Deep down filled with agony and hatred.. depression. But I'm not clouded by it, I'm seeing the world as it is. And it is incredibly cruel place to be. Wars born out of religious conflicts, political corruption, terrorism, poverty.. there are just a few things that I hate. I also hate people. People have let me down so many times that I no longer have any expectations of anyone. People just make me angry. Watching an old man spit immigrant on her face.. or a group of teenagers pick on the old person in the bus. These things annoy me so tremendously that when I'm on the situation, At this point I suppose it is pretty evident that I have some issues. I hate humans, particularly myself, for I am not any better than anyone else. This anger makes me sick, I want to bury it along with every cruel fantasy I've had, with every cruel thing I've screamed.. I want to bury it with the words of forgiveness and gratitude. I'm sorry. May I please have some help? Thank you.