I'm so angry with myself for allowing these things to rule me and my life still. Still. I'm not angry with those who were "abusive" as others put it. I can see how the things have been classified as such. Of course I'm still of the belief that I am/was/always will be responsible. Someone mentioned an ex in passing yesterday and I disappeared. It was out of left field and I was gone. Before I knew that I was or for how long and eventually that person said something that brought me back. Why do I do this crap? Let it all control me? How weak a person I must be. It's just rediculous.