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[nvf1978]

I just want to give up. i am tired of being angry and depressed. all that i do is hurt the people that i love and they would be better off without me. i feel that if i kill my self that their live will be better because they will not have to deal with my shit anymore. I am obsessed with suicide websites. I take depression medication but i stopped taking it for a few weeks and now i am back on it. i feel like a failure and that life is never going to get better. i just wish people would stop caring so i could end my life without hurting anyone.

 

[Acy]

I'm sorry you're feeling so down.

One of depression's nastiest tricks is the way it exaggerates our feelings - guilt, sadness, anger, despair, worthlessness. But it is a trick - the depression won't let us see our good traits and can even try to make us trivialize the good things.

I don't think anyone would be better off without you. I expect your loved ones would like to see you happy, not dead.

Please don't let the depression win the fight. Don't hurt yourself - instead stay safe and come here for support when you need it.

:hug:

 

[jameslyons]

Hi Nancy welcome to the forum. You are not alone in how you're feeling. Depression is out to get you. You don't have to listen to it. :hug: I know it can be really hard, but Acy is right. Depression modifies and intensifies your feelings. I'm certain you have many people that love you and would miss you.

James.

 

[Stranger1]

Hi Nancy,
Welcome to the forum!! You don't know it yet but you have just inherited a whole new family. You will find the members here are genuine and supportive.. You can PM any of us and we will be happy to talk with you or to let you vent..
Acy hit the nail on the head about depression being a monster that grabs ahold of you and doesn't want to let go.. It will lie to you and cheat you out of your life..We all have that in common here at the forum and help each other deal with it on a dailey basis..Please keep talking to us and let us comfort you and show you the support you need to get by everyday!! Take Care!!!

 

[nvf1978]

thank you everyone i am feeling better since i wrote this post. I just met with a new therapist today. She is very nice and already i am comfortable with her. So i know that depression does not go away overnight but as of right now i am sticking around to see what happens.