The end of July is always a hard time for me; when I was 7, my next door neighbour sexually abused and raped me. I don't remember all that happened and I'm half hoping I'll never know. I see "him" almost every day and right now it isn't helping. I'm really struggling with urges to SI and having regular flashbacks and nightmares. I'm not sure what the point of this post is, I guess I just wanted to get it out because I can't talk about it in real life and it is a really difficult time for me. Pi.