So I've posted a bunch about how I'm coping with a recent breakup and I feel like I'm getting obnoxious about it but I'm so annoyed by him lately that I want to scream. I deleted him off of snapchat so I don't have to see his stories all the time which has helped a ton, but recently he's been posting a bunch about all these good things that are happening to him and today he said something about how he's really feeling all the positivity that's been coming his way the past few weeks. Now, I don't wish bad things on anyone obviously, but it seems like he's trying to rub it in my face that he's perfectly okay without me. I don't understand how someone so awful can still have good things happen to them. It makes no sense. I'm over here holding myself together with tape and glue and just trying to get through the week and he's perfectly fine. We haven't spoken in a while and I was pretty happy up until I saw that, now I'm like wtf. But that's probably what he wants. There's also family stuff going on that's piling on to this so I'm ready to burst. I'm taking myself to see a movie tonight so I guess that's a step in the right direction. There's really no point to this post, I just wanted to get it out before I exploded.