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ANeverEndingRose

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Okay so I gave up on friday and drank *****. Was in intensive care all weekend, woke up in the early hours of sunday morning when they took me off life support. The consultant let me go home sunday afternoon, without a psych assessment or discharge note.

I know ive got to try hard now to not let it happen again, but my head is screaming at me to DIE DIE DIE. its hard to ignore it when its so loud. :(
 
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Please hun, don't do this again. You have to fight and stay alive. Tell that voice inside your head that's telling you to die to just shut up. Listen to the voice that wants you to get better. Please don't give up hun. :hug:
 
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i can so totally relate to ya. it's hard to ignore, but we've got to learn to set it aside and not dwell on it. good luck and take care. if you need to chat some more feel free to pm me. i really can relate
 
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ANeverEndingRose said:
Okay so I gave up on friday and drank *****. Was in intensive care all weekend, woke up in the early hours of sunday morning when they took me off life support. The consultant let me go home sunday afternoon, without a psych assessment or discharge note.

I know ive got to try hard now to not let it happen again, but my head is screaming at me to DIE DIE DIE. its hard to ignore it when its so loud. :(
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I don't know what you drank but if you were in the hospital all weekend on life support, I gather it wasn't good. You know. These things may come back to haunt you. It's not just a few days in the hospital. What if you do serious damage to yourself and you later decide you want to live but you can't because you've destroyed your body?
 
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ANeverEndingRose

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I don't know what you drank but if you were in the hospital all weekend on life support, I gather it wasn't good. You know. These things may come back to haunt you. It's not just a few days in the hospital. What if you do serious damage to yourself and you later decide you want to live but you can't because you've destroyed your body?
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You know i can't put on here what i drank, but no obviously it wasnt good.

I am well aware of what im doing to myself and i hate myself for it. I have only one kidney because ive been in a coma in itu so many times.

Its a horrid place to be in and i know its only me who can turn it around. hopefully with a lot of time and counselling i will be able to.
 
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I hope what I said didn't seem judgmental. It's just that I hate to see someone do long-term harm to themselves because of a moment of extreme despair.

I must confess that even though I have the occasional suicidal thought, I have no idea what it would be like to feel compelled to make a serious attempt to the point to where I had no resistance to it. My suicidal thinking is mostly just idle thought meant to ward of depression or something. I don't think I'd ever actually attempt unless I was physically in such a bad spot that I had to.

I feel that if you can just fight these urges. Whatever brings them on, they obviously don't last forever.
 
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