Okay so I gave up on friday and drank *****. Was in intensive care all weekend, woke up in the early hours of sunday morning when they took me off life support. The consultant let me go home sunday afternoon, without a psych assessment or discharge note. I know ive got to try hard now to not let it happen again, but my head is screaming at me to DIE DIE DIE. its hard to ignore it when its so loud.