I've never really considered myself to be someone with a serious eating dissorder but i know it does get overwhelming for me at times. It stems back to my childhood and i always blame my family for it. just the name calling and the rude remarks, chubby bunny...., woddle woddle and just toddle..., Chubs..., look how many rolls she has on her tummy..., Huge thighs.. She looks overweight. My mom always went onto me how i was overweight and should excercise more and eat less. That my sisters are skinny, so whats wrong with me? Well these small comments hurt and now i just hate looking at myself in the mirror. Sorry mum i'm me, and not like the rest of the family. Just accept that! I can't even eat properly anymore and sometimes spend afew days with nothing but tea and coffee until i feel so week i have to force something down. I can't stand seeing all these skinny little women out on the street eating away. It makes me really angry and depressed. The antidepressants i'm on don't help the situation. I get depressed loads because of my weight and then the meds just don't help, cause the side effects are weight gain. There should be some antidepressants that help you loose weight. I just can't deal with eating anymore cause the thought is always in the back of my mind that it will make me fat and ugly.