This is another thing I wrote. Again, I'm not worried about posts. I just need to get this off my chest. I don't know why I've been writing so much :blink: , but I have been... This one is to my best friend Nathan. He doesn't know I consider him my best friend and I know I treat him like crap a lot. But I love him to death, and he doesn't know how I truly feel. You have no clue What it's like to try to deal with This pain. As my heart pounds in my ears, I try to look at things in a positive Perspective. Nothing helps until I see The blood. The blood, the razor, They help me cope with this pain, As I slice my skin open, A wave of comfort washes over me. I feel nothing, see nothing, Am nothing. The blood begins to boil and as I see it bubbling over the edge of My skin I feel Awe, fear, happiness... I am reborn. I finally feel free, Free to let the tears flow, Free to let myself be me. The tears are not of sorrow, But of true happiness As I rip myself open. I am vulnerable As the pain begins to return. I return to the body which I never wanted, I return to the body I have hated all my life, I return to the people I love and hate, Even though everything else is shit The best part is, I get to return to you.