Yay, I begin to come to terms with who I am, and i start planning my life and then another piece of shit is thrown at me. My girlfriend of three years has been going through an existential crisis as well, now she is thinking of reforming her life and taking some kind of trip... and saying she loves me but she may have to leave me... Fucking crock of shit! So in addition to a lot of the other shit, the one part of my life i thought was stable could just up and leave me. She was the only reason i felt worth anything. She picked up my self esteem. She was the one that i made the promise not to kill myself. normally i am more eloquent posts, but hell fuck it.