Have been having a lot of pain lately and partly a reason why i have not been here for quite a while and the other reason is when i have been able to be on i have several surveys to do and occasionly log in to a local web-site for news. but here for the past 2 weeks i have been having really hard sharp pain in my right ear. i had called my regular doctor and had made an appointment with the nurse at the front office but could not get in to see him until this friday evening on April 17. Last time i was at my docs i had an ear infection in my left ear and he had given me a drop to put in my ear and did tell me that day that if it got worse or i was hurting really badly to go to the ER. Well that happened to me yesterday. I woke up by sharp pain in my right ear. Now to kind of explain how it felt. it is like something popping in my ear or like when something burst, and when it does this it shoots sharp pain all up to my right eye and down to my right cheek. my whole right side of my face and ear is very sore and in pain, so much that not only the other pain i have but now this type of pain and the iching, i just hate it. one of the downsides to cancer is the dang itching. i hate it. i hate it.. it hurts when i chew or swallow. well i went to the ER and a Dr Gentry looked at me and told me that my right ear was very infected but that it did not look like a normal infection was a tumor or blood clot and that i need to see my regular doctor to find out what exactly it is. He did not take any x-rays cause i dont have insurance yet he can see this mass in my ear. if it burst i have to call an ambulance ASAP. he told me that he was going to go ahead and treat me as an regular ear infection and gave me an antibiodict drop and some other prescription. Made it clear to me to follow up with my doc and that he needs to send me to a ear cancer specalist. heck, i dont even know how much the prescription will even cost and i do not have any insurance which is a major obsticule to me getting the meds i need.. so i am right now in pain and have to suffer with this until i see my doc on friday.. if any of you pray? please pray for me that this pain will ease up or at least where i will be able to make it to friday.?. see i get all my meds from the heath department and i have to wait until friday cause that is the only time they can see me.. Fearing that this may be much more cancer in my body is a pain to even think about and go through.. heck half the people around me never believed i have the other cancer and they not going to believe this nither and i need support. its like i am the only one who knows the truth about my health cause others refuse to accept the fact. maybe they dont want it to be the truth and dont want me in pain but not wanting me to suffer is not helping matters. i am already going through a lot of pain and really need friends and loved ones right now.. i admit i have not been the best of friends or family but right now i need prayers, so if you pray please ask God to ease up on my pain if it be to his will, and no need to reply here if you prefer not to.. God will still here your prayers for me.. take care and i love you all!!