had another flashback last night. i hate when these memories come to me. i dreamt i was being forced to give him oral sex. i was choking and couldn't breathe. it was awful. i still feel all shaky. i don't handle flashbacks well at all. the last two major memories i had i ended up in the hospital as they made me really suicidal. i couldn't deal. does anyone have any words of advice or support, or ideas on how to handle new memories. these things happened to me when i was 6. sometimes i wish i'd never remember.