Struggling again. Feel like I'm losing everything I have. I'm failing uni just because I can't be bothered to get up and do anything for it. I stayed in bed all day today. I feel so alone. So lost. I feel like I can't talk about how I'm feeling anymore because it annoys people that I'm down. Even people on here. I don't have anyone in real life. No one I could call or talk to. I used to SH just to feel something and I felt a bit better after it. Now I just do it to punish myself. I don't care how far I go. It doesn't matter anymore. I hate the person I became. I hate the scars. I am ashamed of them. I've been researching methods much more these last few days. I have what I need now. I really don't see a reason why I shouldn't just get it over with.