I turned 18 and started college. It's so lonely here. I have zero friends and all I do is stay in my room, either crying or just sleeping. It's even a bother to get up to go to class, so sometimes I just don't anymore. I can't even bring myself to eat at the dining hall because I get so much anxiety from eating by myself, so I don't. I get very jealous and sad seeing people with their friends and having fun and it just sucks because everyone is always telling me that I just need to talk to people, but if it was that easy for me, then I'd have a bunch of friends. I wish I had friends. I wish I had people who care. I wish life wasn't so sh*tty and that I was just happy for once. To add on, I started dr**king heavily. It's the only thing that's numbing my pain.