I'm sorry to do this again. I should be used to waking up feeling bad, but no....it's not something that I have been able to do yet. I get up with things on my mind, mainly stuff from my past that I have not been able to get over. I was thinking about a negative experience that I had with a mental health clinic/office a few years ago. I was reffered there by a lazy ass physician who all he seemed to do (or could do) was just toss me some sample packs of some pills. ( I went to him because a relative took me there. This relative has a very limited understanding of the mental health system). But this place that physician reffered me to was no better....it was just pills, pills, pills. I would talk to a therapist and no matter how i tried to explain the stuff that was going on, it would always get back to pills. The one or two times I did speak to a psychiatrist, her whole attitude came off as "im just here to prescribe pills" In case it's not obvious, I am not a fan of psychiatrict drugs. I had very negative experiences with them. in fact, the experience with this place ended nagatively(sp) and it's hard to get into. But like so many other things, I am still bitter over it. I know that on my part there were tings i could have done differently, but it doesn't change the fact that I feel the mental health system is often times really lazy and some times they do more harm than good. I never got any relief from a pill. Hell, I'm a recovering alcoholic, and looking back the booze I drank only numbed the pain to a certain extent.....but it was more than what medication ever did for me. I don't know what I'm trying to ramble about.....I'm just not looking forward to today and I'm just very tired of life at the moment. I'm sorry for rambling like this.