I found this site hoping for something to help me and someone to talk to who will understand. I have never tried to commit suicide but I have thought about it a little. I am just not brave enough but if someone said there was a painless and super fast way for me to die then I dont know if I would try it. My parents are always yelling. I am a mistake. They begin yelling when my older sister was born. I am 19. Its been a while. I shouldnt even have been born. My dad just yelled at my mom to clean the kitchen and said he has to cook for your daughter. Its like I am not even his daughter and he doesnt want to make me dinner. I heard a cash and apparently he knocked the pen/paper box off the desk. I saw it when I went down for dinner. And before I went down I heard him curse at my mom alot. I always listen from the stairs to hear if he is in the kitchen because I hate being with both of them together. Even if I am starving I wont go down there. I couldnt even eat dinner I was so sad. But no one knows. I fake I am happy. I am home from winter break now and go back in a week but college also sucks for me.