New to the forums but not to the reason for why I am here. I don't know why I always end up back at the same place - feeling worthless and wanting to die. It's been 6 years since the beginning of my mental health struggles and I'm starting to think that regardless of all the psychiatrists, medications, therapies and determination, it will continue for another 60 years. :sad: I should be happy. There are people in the world who are starving and I have everything, yet I'm the one who hates existing. It doesn't make sense. Yes, my life hasn't been the easiest but I don't know why I can't just forget the past and move on. Anyway, I've pretty much given up on being 'normal'. I'm just hoping that this place is somewhere that I can finally open up and tell the truth, because having to hide it from my family every single day is tiring.