Hi all, I hate introductions so I well try and keep it short has I can. I have been suicidal be for but never really tried to take my own life. Am unhappy with my life but can not seem to do much about it. Everything logically tells me that I should end it has nothing is ever going to change. A little about my self. I am 34 all though I look only 24, some may say younger. I am not a big guy. So maybe that makes me look younger has well. Also am from the UK in case anyone wonders. I have not had a GF since I was 18 I did used to enjoy all that any normal guy would do with there GF all though I am also attracted to guys has well. Mostly I fantasize about other guys. Not that anyone who knows me would know that. That's probably one reason am still alone has girls that I know just are not doing it for me. They used to when I was younger. I don't work so don't meet many ppl or girls so maybe its just that I have not meat the right one. All this confusers me has I have been attracted to girls in my younger days. Any way I live alone and have done since I was 20 years old. I have thought be for of ending it and have got very down in myself cos of that. Am not feeling that depressed right now, maybe just looking for some answers I think.