What's the point? Really what is the point of doing anything with no reason or idea of what will happen if you do it? I don't know what to do. I have nothing to look forward to and more importantly I'm becoming something that is not good for anyone. I'm starting to see that I'm dragging people down with me and that is the last thing I want to do. They have their lives and I can't always be bugging them because I'm so screwed up. I feel horrible and then I feel even worse that I feel horrible. I just don't seem to think like anyone else and I'm so tired of pretending. It just all seems to be falling apart and the future is getting even blacker than I saw it to be in the first place. I know I'm smart but I just feel like I'm getting dumber everyday. I can't think straight, I can't remember what I need to and I just automatically seem to challenge everything and become angry about it. I failed my exam by an amount I've never even came close to before and I just don't see anyway that I will ever get a good job with the marks I'm getting. I really feel like I have nothing that gives me happiness anymore. I go home and I can't wait to get away, but when I come to University and am finally away, I can't wait to go somewhere else. Somewhere where I don't feel so hopeless and empty. Things that I used to enjoy I don't. I don't feel anything but anger, sadness and hopeless. I'm just so tired of pretending. The one person that I care about will be leaving my life in 6 months and I really don't see myself making it much longer than that, if I make it that long. I really only have one reason why I'm still here and that's simply because I wouldn't want to hurt others (although I'm not even sure if they would actually care). What is the point of trying, when I'm going to end up being broke, alone and a failure to all those that were counting on me.