I'm about to head to bed. Laying here and my thoughts aren't well again. Just tired of being this way. I feel like a disappointment. Frustrated at myself for everything. I been so down today, fighting a headache, and being nauseous - as well as fighting of the eating disorder behaviors that has taken over my life. My thoughts are killing me. If it's not the depression killing me it's the eating disorder. My body is so drained. I'm exhausted emotionally in this fight. My medicine will kick in soon. My husband and I have to get up early to go on a drive to sign paperwork for a move. Hoping everything goes well on that. Just tired of these awful thoughts that fill my mind.