I feel that things are coming to a close in my story. But first lets get something out of the way: I don't expect anything you say in this thread to be worthwhile. I'm trying to say this in the nicest way possible, since I know all of you have to deal with so many pathetic people on here every day. Also, its not like there's any real weight to push someone to actually care. My motivations are equally suspect. The only excuse to give is that this is the only comfortable place I can give an honest perspective on my situation. I think this is what they call "crying out for help". Now that I've said that, I don't really want to give the long story. In short, this week I'll go to the woods and find a nice place to lie down and eventually die.