Heya, Atheist Demon,
First of all, I don't hate you.
Most people are their own harshest critics, so I bet you're being way too hard on yourself. I would bet you're far more attractive than you think or know, and you are certainly worthwhile!
When we get depressed, we still have our good qualities, we just don't see them. Depression makes us think life is dark and gloomy. Feeling alone and lonely are magnified by the depression, too. You won't always feel this way. When you have come through the period of depression, you'll see things in a better light. When you come through the depression, you will find you have lots to offer and you've got your whole life ahead of you to meet people to share your life with.
Please don't give in to the darkness of the depression; instead, ride through it, holding on tight. You've got got better times coming when you're not depressed, hun.
:hug:
A.