I don't know where to start. I try to quit drinking because I tried to drink my depression away. I suffer from borderline disorder. I have been taking meds for the depression but now I can't afford it anymore. A lot of my friends turned their back to me because of the drinking. Now I have not even money to buy booze meds or food. I don't want to get out of bed anymore. It is getting close to my birthday and I have suffered so much before but now I feel that I really want to end this once and for all.