So my mom called the doctor today on how I've been acting, and she couldn't get in touch with anyone she wanted to, but still... It's coming. She wants to get me anti depressants, but I know the first thing they'll recommend me for is therapy. I don't want it, if I wanted to talk to anyone face to face I would do it myself.... I also know the first thing they'll ask me is if I'm suicidal... It's almost...well, I don't want to go. I'm embarrassed, and I don't want to talk to them about this mess. I feel like a stupid idiot..