what's up everyone :biggrin: I'm having these urges for months and the more I let go the stronger it gets !! I am gifted with a very high intelligence , don't have much friends and everytime a supposed to be "friend" know on my door it's defenitly because he needs something , it's impossible because he just wanna say hi or check on me since it's them who really need me and I never asked anything from them I gave up on them , and since I don't believe in true friendship anymore ... atleast I don't think I'll experience it anyway I can easly get myself a girlfriend since i'm a very attracktive guy BUT I just don't want a dumb girl with me thinking about what simple minds think about and yes I experienced what I thought was love but turns out I get betrayed by everyone I know and aslong as I'm not needed I'm very dispensable back to the urges , I get them and it's like a hunger or thirst for taking someone's life and that made me take a weapon and go out the night in dark places many times but so far i haven't killed anyone cause of some circumstances that didn't let me the last weeks I haven't experienced any of these urges but now it's back with depression and not caring about anything anymore I even made plans of what i'm supposed to do to achieve the perfect KILL !! I'm anti social meaning I don't make friends and I'm not friendly anymore ,yes I was a very friendly and peaceful guy but that only made people use me and play with me it's like I have a beast inside that NEEDS to be fed and I can't handle it anymore !! I finally understand why and how serial killers do what they do and I come form a clean family with no criminal records or anything I don't think you can help me but it's worth a shot and please if you think you want to help me , be realistic in your relpies Bye !!