I have an appointment with a psychiatrist this afternoon to discuss medication but i am extremely apprehensive to start taking something. obviously, i was concerned with the side effects, but then at some point i thought that i was tired of feeling like this and something just needs to happen. i wanted something to tackle the problem fast. but then i started thinking. say an antidepressant did work and its side effects were manageable, how can i work through the problems that are causing the depression if i am in an altered mental state? if the symptoms DID disappear or get significantly less, how can i treat something that is no longer there? i cant say that i know much about antidepressants, but to me it seems like medication is a relatively quick "fix" but it wont help me in the long run, unless i keep taking that medication. thoughts? also, if the medication was making me feel worse, i feel like that would manipulate therapy as well, since it wouldnt be the problems that are natural (meaning that they are the results from my upbringing etc) and that i started out with. they would be caused by this medication and how can you overcome something with CBT or whatever that is beyond your control? i mean, if the meds affect your brain's chemicals, there would be nothing you can do about that. other than switching meds of course. naturally, i am very afraid of things getting worse. the whole reason i consider taking anything is bc im tried of feeling like this and not being able to function. if side effects were to increase my depression.... or even worse.... is it worth the risk? i dont want to feel numb. i want the cloud to go away. i want to stop feeling like my hands are tied together. i hate that phrase that its a "trial and error" kind of thing. there is NO ROOM FOR ERROR. when it comes to someone with mental instability, there is just no room for error. has anybody had positive experiences with antidepressants? if so, what were they and how long did it take until you noticed a difference? did impact therapy, and if so, how? what side effects did you experience? Thanks!