I have had this phobia for as long as I can remember and I never understood why. I have an extreme fear of throwing up and it causes me extrreme anxiety. I had the fear since at least middle school, but the fear had always been manageable. Though, three months ago I got the stomach flu and got sick and it started a cycle of anxiety I can't seem to break. I'm 18 years old and in college and I've hardly been able to keep up with my classes because of this problem. I've been seeing a therapist, but I feel like I can't confide in him anymore. I also see a psychiatrist to get medications, but nothing has worked so far. I can't eat or even sleep regularly and I'm extremely depressed. I'm afraid to eat because I'm afraid it will make me sick and I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like my last option is to kill myself because I just can't stand this constant fear and depression anymore. Nothing even seems worth it anymore and I just want to die so I don't feel the way I do anymore.