Well, I feel as if I need help in understanding what happened, so here goes:
Last night I was on another forum which deals with depression, suicide, etc and I was chatting with this lady via PM's. We're friends and the conversation we had consisted of us talking about food, then about cats and chocolate. I was even playing around cuz she's trying to stay off chocolate but I kept saying I would have a chocolate bar infront of her.
Anyways before this I had promised not to act out my compulsion which I have (I can't say what it is because I feel ashamed to say) but I did anyways. Also while I was talking to her, I wondered about how nice she is and if I like her in more then a friends way. But after all this had set in, I started to panic and get soo anxious. You see, I like this other girl alot but we're friends for now.
I've had this uncomfortable, horrible feeling for most of last night and most of today. It comes and goes but it's mainly there. I feel as if i've betrayed the other girl I like even though deep down I know I don't like the girl I was talking to online last night in no more then a friends way.
I've had these thought repetetively in my mind. Can anybody explain what happened or still is happening to me?
I've also been thinking that i've mis-read what I was feeling for the friend online I was speaking to and just blew everything out of proportion which I've done soo many times in the past.
Any help would be grately appreciated. I'm soo uncertain as to what is going on.
Thanks for taking time to read all this.
Last night I was on another forum which deals with depression, suicide, etc and I was chatting with this lady via PM's. We're friends and the conversation we had consisted of us talking about food, then about cats and chocolate. I was even playing around cuz she's trying to stay off chocolate but I kept saying I would have a chocolate bar infront of her.
Anyways before this I had promised not to act out my compulsion which I have (I can't say what it is because I feel ashamed to say) but I did anyways. Also while I was talking to her, I wondered about how nice she is and if I like her in more then a friends way. But after all this had set in, I started to panic and get soo anxious. You see, I like this other girl alot but we're friends for now.
I've had this uncomfortable, horrible feeling for most of last night and most of today. It comes and goes but it's mainly there. I feel as if i've betrayed the other girl I like even though deep down I know I don't like the girl I was talking to online last night in no more then a friends way.
I've had these thought repetetively in my mind. Can anybody explain what happened or still is happening to me?
I've also been thinking that i've mis-read what I was feeling for the friend online I was speaking to and just blew everything out of proportion which I've done soo many times in the past.
Any help would be grately appreciated. I'm soo uncertain as to what is going on.
Thanks for taking time to read all this.