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Anxiety settling in.

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well, there's a football game tonight.

and I decided. well, I'll go...

But I feel, unclean almost, and not deserving to go. Since everyone goes and gets dressed up with their 'close' friends and everything. oh, look at me, going all pretty..getting dropped off alone..by my mom?

now i feel like backing out. i almost want to cry.

should i go?

should i stay?

I feel like my heart is going to stop beating and I can't breath. :/
 
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headrushh said:
well, there's a football game tonight.

and I decided. well, I'll go...

But I feel, unclean almost, and not deserving to go. Since everyone goes and gets dressed up with their 'close' friends and everything. oh, look at me, going all pretty..getting dropped off alone..by my mom?

now i feel like backing out. i almost want to cry.

should i go?

should i stay?

I feel like my heart is going to stop beating and I can't breath. :/
I'm not going to advise you to do anything because if I was in your situation, I wouldn't go, but I know I have a different mentality than you do. This probably didn't help.

Try to meet some people and then meet them at the next football game. Why would you go alone? There's no point.
 
#3
oh, i know people. it's just,

i'm there in that crowd. but no one wants to totally accept me.
its like a fucking image they want to keep up. and when i need a close friend, where the hell are they?

i dont know. heh, your post did help me change my thinking a bit.
 

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#4
Hey, how did it go? Did you go or not? Thats the problem, I keep hearing people always say to "be yourself", but yet there's always pressure to conform to something, everyone else does it and its so painful and hurtful when your the only one different from everyone, as with me and college for example. I'm in my second year and haven't made a single friend, pretty pathetic huh?

But yet I'm mostly miserable NOT because I'm lonely, but because everyone else has friends and only I don't and that college is about studying and socialing and having "the greatest time of your life", everyone tells me to just make friends but they have no idea how different and messed up I am compared to every one freaking else.

Its all so confusing really.
 
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nkrukato said:
Hey, how did it go? Did you go or not? Thats the problem, I keep hearing people always say to "be yourself", but yet there's always pressure to conform to something, everyone else does it and its so painful and hurtful when your the only one different from everyone, as with me and college for example. I'm in my second year and haven't made a single friend, pretty pathetic huh?

But yet I'm mostly miserable NOT because I'm lonely, but because everyone else has friends and only I don't and that college is about studying and socialing and having "the greatest time of your life", everyone tells me to just make friends but they have no idea how different and messed up I am compared to every one freaking else.

Its all so confusing really.

How are you different from everyone else besides your social life, which we have in common, btw.
 
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