I have so much anxiety right now. I see my psychologist in two hours and I'm freaking out about it. I hate that I have to tell her that I still feel suicidal. Last week was real bad for me and I came so close to attempting suicide again. I had two appointments with my therapist and I thought they would help, but they made me feel worse. She seemed so disconnected from me and I really don't feel comfortable with her anymore. It hurts that I pretty much told her that I was going to kill myself that night and all she said was to go to the hospital if I needed to. I told her I wouldn't do that, but she repeated the same message of telling me to go to the hospital. I really don't know what I was expecting and I'm worried about my psychologist asking me that. I just feel so hopeless about the whole situation. I have had no luck with therapists and I'm doubtful that I ever will. This isn't the first incident I've had with her. It feels more that she's just someone to talk to, and not someone who is actually helping me. I'm canceling my appointment with her this week and I'm so worried about next week, but I need more time to figure out what to do.