Safety & Support
Ok well I was a bit of a silly billy today. I got my days for my appointment with my CPN mixed up. I thought it was today but it is tomorrow. I get extremely anxious and worked up over the appointments and had anxiety attacks most of the day. I tried to be productive aand went on a website of mine and made graphics and layouts with css. I kept seeing people outside my house. I looked out my patio door and there was a person there then when I looked again they werw gone. The same with the front door. I have seen some odd shadows also. I have been hearing cars pull up outside my house and onto my drive but when I look there is nothing there. Also I had another experience with my fiance tonight. He was fast aslwep and snoring and I was sure his eyes were wide open. They were not normal. They were big black eyes like something you would see from the grudge. I cant work out if this is real, hallucinations or if I am imagining it all. I have never experienced this before and I am quite freaked out. My mind is racing and I cant sleep. Meep. I think I will tell my CPN tomorrow but I am so scared.