Anxious

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Fitzy, Jan 31, 2011.

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  1. Fitzy

    Fitzy Well-Known Member

    I've experienced depression at varying degrees for about 45 years since I was 7. Sometimes it's really bad and I end up having suicidal thoughts and self harming. I last made a suicide attempt over 30 years ago and very nearly succeeded. Since I had my daughter I haven't attempted but the urges are still there - sometimes I think about killing her. I think I had a manic episode a few years ago and a lesser one a year or so ago. Following that I have dipped and really want to die. My GP keeps prescribing meds but has now agreed that I need specialist help. I see a psychiatrist tomorrow for the first time in 30 years and I'm scared. I haven't prepped and l don't know what to expect - last time I got told I was a silly girl. Now I just think I'm a crazy old lady.
    That silly girl needed help - how can I trust the medics with my life now?
    Death would be pretty good right now.
     
  2. may71

    may71 Well-Known Member

    please don't hurt yourself!

    If a p-doc told you that you were "a silly girl", then they were totally incompetent. Hopefully the new doc will be better.

    unfortunately there are lots of bad people in the business

    seeing the p-doc could help, and this is a hopeful thing!
     
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