Abused and alone Lately I've been suicidal, I haven't felt like this since I was 14. I'm now 18 years old. I just got a job so I have no money on me. I also dont have a car to escape for awhile. I have a small daughter who's just 1. We live with her dad. He's abusive to me and makes me feel worse when he knows I'm suicidal. I can't go back home, my moms boyfriend won't allow me back only my daughter. I only have one friend here but there's not much she can do. I feel so lonley and worthless at times. I have no self esteem either, I am ashamed to be myself. I want to hide from everyone else. I just wish I could escape to a place with my baby where we can be happy together. I love her so much and I'm trying to keep strong but this boring lonley life is pulling me down.