does anyone care? if i came or went? feel like shit. can't think why i should even try anymore. i've been trying to think about what i am worth to ppl. i can't think of anythng good or worthy of sticking around. who would i hurt? don't know. they'd get over it. i need to talk to someone soon. the urge is getting harder to fight. sommeone tells me they love meand i get depressed cuz i love her too, nut can't say it. then why does she love me. whaat good am i? all i am is a lowdown no good scandalous ass dopefiend. i have four months clean and just want to go out high. i already know how it's gonna happen. been knowing for years. OD. thats the way. it really sounds good right now.