Okay, I've been suicidal most of my life...a lot of childhood stuff and been in therapy forever. I explained in another post but basically I planned a holiday for myself. I was hoping it might be a turn in the road to something positive. Well, I ended up getting sick the first day away and had to come home. I passed out at the airport. I had been sick and I'll spare you the details but basically my body wasn't liking food at all...it was not staying in my body at all. So day after I got home, I went to hospital and got 4 IVs and potassium tablets. Problem is just before going I OD'd on Nytol so I couldn't walk or talk and I was messed up. Now I'm worried I've really screwed myself. The day after this I went to my family doc who had a replacement that day. She filled out the form saying I was ill and dehydrated while away for the insurance company I only worry if the insurance looks into this they will think it's a mental issue and I don't want to be discriminated against since I was truly ill. If insurance doesn't help at all I'm stuck with a loan that only makes me more depressed. I wanted to be on holidays...to be away from here. Any thoughts on the insurance thing? I don't know if I've posted this here correctly. I see my family doc tomorrow and I'm going to tell her that part. She's really nice but I'm embarrassed She knows I get very suicidal but I hope she believes and knows I was sick. Why else would they have said I was dehydrated and have given all the IVs and potassium right? Thoughts?