They always say suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem (They love to say stupid crap to just piss you off more) but here I am almost 40 and I have been thinking about suicide every day of my life since I was about 12. That's 27 years if you don't want to count that high. I think that for some people who just have a few problems, yeah. Maybe there's hope. But when you've been thinking about it for 27 years pretty much nonstop and looked at it from every angle, how can they say you don't know what you want?