My daughter died a couple of years ago, suicide. Work sent me off to see a shrink so I could get back to full duties. I have been feeling very suicidal myself, grief issues and being bullied at work, I was also harassed by the media at the time of her death. I am below average in the looks department and have always been picked on about it. My brother would always say to me, you are the type of person nobody really likes etc. I have always felt that I never belong. I have people at work that say hello to me and chat and laugh with me, but it never goes any further than that. I compete in a sport, and needed someone to help me with driving to get to the next competition, no one wanted to help me. I was really looking forward to it, and the next comp isn't until October!!! One lady was in the way, while I was at practice, and stopped me from being able to perform, I asked her to move, she said no, so I had to go home, as I couldn't do anymore with her in the way. We had voting for an award, and I think even though in my sport I perform very well and rarely make a mistake, I got no votes, but other people did who make lots of mistakes did get votes. So you can imagine a feeling of "nobody likes me, nobody wants to help" etc. Now the shrink is saying things to me like, "you don't have to come and see me", "would you like to see someone else", "i don't need your (employer's name) money". Then on the other hand she says "If your work stops funding you, you can still come and see me, and I will bulk bill you (means, I don't have to pay, medicare pays for it). Then right after last appointment she says "you don't have to come and see me", she then says she has concerns about me, and would like to see me the next week and then make it fornightly appointments. I so do not understand what she is going on about. But it is really making me feel like crap. She has also said going to hospital would not help me. I am so confused, what she is going on about???